Okay, so obviously that didn't work!!! A lot has happened in the month and a half that I have not posted anything :( ... I did pray a lot about needing help and trying to find a focus. God sent that help in the form of a friend who asked me if I wanted to join Weight Watchers Online. I have done the Weight Watchers before, so I was a little skeptical about it. She said...that I didn't have to go to meetings or do the weigh in...you could join just the online plan. She explained that there were a whole bunch of tools and recipes and other things to help you stay motivated...without having to go the boring meetings...no offense to anyone (yeah right) who reads this. If those work for you, then you should go. We are not a "cookie-cutter" society--one thing will work for someone and not work for someone else--that's me, meetings don't work for me.
So I looked into the online version of Weight Watchers and liked all the different tools...like the app that I could put on my Ipod and on my husband's phone, cause I don't have a smart phone--don't feel sorry for me, it was my choice. Now no matter where I was I could track, even before hand, what I was going to put into my mouth. That worked for all of about a week. I lost five pounds!!! Great!!! Then life, and food got in the way. It is not easy staying motivated to eat right, exercise, yada, yada, yada, when you live with a bunch of guys who really can eat anything and not ever gain an ounce. My husband and four boys are those type of guys. It is not easy to fit in exercise when there are other things to get done. It really is hard to focus on myself when I know that there are other jobs that need to be done and I am just plain lazy...let's not leave that out!
I gave into my cravings and fell right back into an old habit...but I have to say, I only did for three days. Today is a new day. I have exercised, I have tried to be proactive about fixing my derailment and joined a couple of the community groups on Weight Watchers Online to seek strength and motivation again. I have only been on Weight Watchers for two weeks...well two weeks on Wednesday. But I want to make it work. So that is where I am. I am really trying to fight giving up all together. I am writing here and I am writing where I know others will see it also. Wish me luck and if by chance someone reads this, please pray for me to have enough strength this week to over come obstacles I am sure will rear their ugly heads. Thank You.
Sunday, April 29, 2012
Sunday, March 18, 2012
My Beginning But Not My Ending
Tomorrow will start my journey to which the end result, I am hoping, will be a thinner me, who can handle being around food without going hog wild, pardon the pun. A little bit about myself. I have an addiction to food. My weight is not some astronomical number, I am 5'6" and I weigh 185 pounds. I would call myself pudgy. I am unhappy with the way that I look but more than that I am unhappy about being addicted to food. I can't be around it without putting some of it in my mouth and I am not even hungry. I am not sure when this addiction started or how it started. I hope to discover that on my journey to being thin and in control.
How do I plan to achieve this goal? Well I have thought and prayed for a long time. I have asked God for help and every time I have asked Him for help He has put little ideas into my head. Creating this blog, somewhere I can write my frustrations and successes but be totally anonymous, was one of those ideas. Last year I tried reading The Weigh Down Diet by Gwen Shamblin. I had a little success in controlling what I ate and how much and even lost some weight. Her idea was to put that focus that I have on food back to where it should be, on God. Tomorrow I plan on picking up her book and reading a little bit each day to help me stay on track, that is another tool.
I am hoping that this journey will bring me into the relationship that I long to have with the Lord. I want a personal relationship, one in which I am talking to Him throughout the whole day, not just early in the morning. I am hoping to be more like Christ, I want my light to shine for Him. I want to be able to truly say that I know Him and He knows me.
Fears? Yep, I have a bunch of those. I fear gaining a bunch of weight. I fear food. I fear that I will never be able to say no. I fear that I won't learn to listen to my body and learn my hunger and full signals. I fear that I won't have the close relationship with God that I truly want to have. I fear failure.
I will not let those fears get the best of me. "'For I know the plans I have for you,' says the LORD. "They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope. In those days when you pray, I will listen. If you look for me wholeheartedly, you will find me. I will be found by you,' says the LORD. " Jer. 29:11-14a. I will stand on that promise.
I will start each day trusting in my Savior. He has plans for me. That is where I will draw my strength. I hope one day this blog will help others to find their way out of their wilderness and into the promise land that God has promised to them.
How do I plan to achieve this goal? Well I have thought and prayed for a long time. I have asked God for help and every time I have asked Him for help He has put little ideas into my head. Creating this blog, somewhere I can write my frustrations and successes but be totally anonymous, was one of those ideas. Last year I tried reading The Weigh Down Diet by Gwen Shamblin. I had a little success in controlling what I ate and how much and even lost some weight. Her idea was to put that focus that I have on food back to where it should be, on God. Tomorrow I plan on picking up her book and reading a little bit each day to help me stay on track, that is another tool.
I am hoping that this journey will bring me into the relationship that I long to have with the Lord. I want a personal relationship, one in which I am talking to Him throughout the whole day, not just early in the morning. I am hoping to be more like Christ, I want my light to shine for Him. I want to be able to truly say that I know Him and He knows me.
Fears? Yep, I have a bunch of those. I fear gaining a bunch of weight. I fear food. I fear that I will never be able to say no. I fear that I won't learn to listen to my body and learn my hunger and full signals. I fear that I won't have the close relationship with God that I truly want to have. I fear failure.
I will not let those fears get the best of me. "'For I know the plans I have for you,' says the LORD. "They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope. In those days when you pray, I will listen. If you look for me wholeheartedly, you will find me. I will be found by you,' says the LORD. " Jer. 29:11-14a. I will stand on that promise.
I will start each day trusting in my Savior. He has plans for me. That is where I will draw my strength. I hope one day this blog will help others to find their way out of their wilderness and into the promise land that God has promised to them.
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